serabut la aku...

2006 alkisahnyer aku pernah "tolak" sumbody ni just kerana aku marah bile persahabatan yg aku hulurkan disalh ertikan.... kerna telah aku jelaskan bahwa aku bisa jadi teman.. teman yang mana bisa berkongsi cerita.. tiada unsur perasan yg hadir dalam diri aku untuk dia.. kerana aku menghormatinya sebgai kawan... aku hilangkan diri semata mata untuk mengelakkan dia.malah dia juga bawak diri ke UK dengar kata dari sahabat lain yg rapat dgnnye..

3 tahun berlalu dan aku maafkan.kini dia kembali ... mencari diri budak kecik nih... takde syak pape mungkin memasing dh lupa ape yg pernah berlaku..

arinih bile aku sempat luangkan mase unutk ber chit chat dan pertanyaan yang sama 3 tahun lalu kembali lagi....

stanley lee : i want to marry u..
stanley lee : will u marry me?
hanie -: marry me? y?
stanley lee: yes i want to marry u
hanie -: how come u say u want to marry me..
hanie -: i`ve already engaged n will get marry soon... (terpakse berbohong )
stanley lee : pls
stanley lee : i`ve already think about this long before.... n u`re the person that change my life much... n i can`t live without you....since u avoiding me all these while just becoz i`ve approach u before...
hanie -: ermm...
hanie -: i can`t
stanley lee : yes u can
hanie -: y u said like that?
hanie -: i`m just ordinary gurl...
stanley lee : yes
stanley lee : yes
hanie -: but its too dificult to me...
stanley lee: no dont say that
stanley lee: i want u to know that life is good but some people dont understand it
hanie -: yups i konw that...
stanley lee: i maybe the guy that can marry u very well and give u happinesss
hanie -: but my situation are different
stanley lee: u have to give a chance to me ok
hanie -: ermm
stanley lee: is not
stanley lee: even if u want to marry him just give me chance
hanie -: stanley...
stanley lee: if i have advice to give u i will give it to u
stanley lee: yes
hanie -: i have work aite now..
hanie -: my boss want to see me..
hanie -: can we chat later...
stanley lee: i want to be in part of u life
stanley lee: i know u want to aviod me aite.. mcm 3 tahun lepas....
hanie -: erkkkk
stanley lee: do u remember u told me this long time
stanley lee: because i want to care for u so much
hanie -: stanley...
hanie -: i`m muslim...ok... u tau i`m muslim person... dunia kite berbeza.. amat berbeza
stanley lee: k
stanley lee: yes i
stanley lee: i know
stanley lee: i will follow u
hanie -: if u want to marry me...u must convert
hanie -: it is not easy ok
stanley lee: yes ok for me ...saya boleh masuk islam ape? if u say you`ll marry me, i`ll convert right now...
hanie -: i`m not the person that are suit for u
stanley lee: give me chance
stanley lee: why u say that
hanie -: it is not easy ok
stanley lee: yes ok for me
stanley lee: i want u ok
stanley lee: and i will follow u
stanley lee: promise
hanie -: y me?
hanie -: there`s lots of gurl out there...
hanie -: i`m just nothing...
stanley lee: dont say that
stanley lee: u are a woman as well dont be surprice of that ok
stanley lee: just give me chance
stanley lee: are u there
hanie -: yes i`m here...
hanie -: well stanley... jgn mudah ukir kata kata .. don`t jugde hal convert ni satu perkara remeh... when u convert islam there too many thing u must change.... bukan senang nak masuk islam..banyak yg u must learn termasuk yang "itu".. i taknak u convert islam semata mata just nak kan i.. nk kawen dgn i....

hanie -: sume tu must come from your heart ok....i tak mampu nak bimbing u sedangkan i sendiri belum sempurna...

hanie -: i`m sorry.... terima kasih.. but the answer is no! i mintak maaf terpakse menghampakan u sekali lagi... i bukan ornagnyer... u berhak cari yg lebih baik dari i... perjalanan kite masih jauh.. i tak mampu nak beri ape yg u wish from me... mayb i hanya boleh jadi kawan u but bukan sumbody dlm hidup u...

stanley lee -: ok i`ll understand... mayb u tak yakin dgn diri i but trust me ....

terukkan.. mungkin ader yg pikir aku jual mahal.. bodoh n whatever words la.. but aku ader reason aku sendiri.. serik.. cukup dh ape yg aku ader sekarang.. luka yg sedia ader pun belum terubat.... jangan la duga aku lagi ... jgn harapkan ape ape dari aku lagi....

ni mau aku kene gelak ngan kak ai n abg aku kalau aku citer.. sebb byk sangat masalh dunia dtg tak henti.. mmg patot kawan aku panggil aku jicau( jiwa kacau) huhuhuhu

*yg diharap menghilang yg tak dinanti bertandang tiba